To My Hopefully Still Good Friend, Larkin:

Hope you enjoy my Halloween gift of a large Hershey bar w/almonds, and two Mad Magazines!

I really am not sure at all, why you suddenly ended what seemed to be the start of an excellent friendship...though I do have some ideas. I might be wrong, but here goes:

(Before I proceed, please note I am strongly attracted to you in a romantic friendship way...I have no interest in getting into your pants, as darlingly handsome as you are. I think you need to understand this; I suspect you already do.)

Some very wicked and jealous people surrounding you have driven us apart, most likely with ugly gossip...to convince you that I've partaken in some nasty games against you. None of this is true, including the series of crises that burdened you last year (loss of home, job, and SOMA hangout...all within the same, very short few weeks). You stopped talking to me immediately after I was drugged/mugged...which really did happen. The last time we hugged, was April 9, 2006...and it has been a painful odyssey ever since, that you avoid me like the plague, and treat me like the most horrible person on earth!

Did you know that someone at The Hole, told me you were homeless? And can you imagine the sorrow this caused me? I asked some people there, how you are doing...people who at least seemed to be your friends. But I got mostly hostile replies and/or intentional misinformation...probably because they are twisted, jealous queens who love to screw with decent peoples' minds. So you can imagine my surprise (and delight) when you resurfaced in my life, directly across my apartment building! In fact, I could see you clearly, right from a hallway window, especially when you were on the balcony. I was tempted to gesture towards you, with a "Wiiiilbuuuur" holler, but I was so distraught about what happened between us, I never did.

And now, you're permanently in my neck of the woods at Market and Church Streets...where I hang out daily, including at the Church Street Coffeehouse (formerly Muddy Waters). Funny how both our hangouts here in The Castro changed ownership around the same time! Just another weird and intriguing event in the chemistry of our association!

Our paths now cross often...and sometimes I pause a while to admire you from a distance. I take your sudden reappearance in my life in my own neighborhood (and for those first few months, right across the street from my apartment) as a positive sign that I'm on the right track, and to keep the faith...that our friendship will resume. I guess you only need to find the moment when the door to our friendship opens up in such a way as to keep you safe from harm. Meanwhile, if I scowl or spit at you (only when you do this to me first), please don't take it personally...as pretending to hate you back is most likely the safest way to behave, for your own protection...and probably, mine too.

Everyone now thinks I despise you, including Eagle bartender Ron...but I really do not. This is simply to get them off my tail, and yours...to make your life more secure, that you may resolve matters at your end, more readily. Reminds me of a romantic gay film I once saw, where two prisoners fell deeply in love. But to keep from being seperated and even murdered, they had to pretend they hate each other in front of the other captives, and prison guards. They'd even beat each other up now and then, to appear totally convincing!

If you think I have plans of vengeance against you, you're wrong. I am only trying to stand by you as a best friend, in hopes the worst will finally blow over, and our friendship resume. Seems to me, that some people control your life, and if they don't like anyone you like, they'll mess with you big time, unless you chase such people away...people who offer you no stress or grief, only friendship. Here's one interesting observation:

Even after you excluded me, you would not let anyone mess with me...and the person who mugged me, Michael, stayed away as long as you hanged out at The Hole. He has since returned a week or two after Gary 86'd you...I remained in order to figure out just what the heck is going on. (I have a hunch that certain evil ones had hoped I'd leave, once you stopped talking to me. When I didn't, I guess they figured I'd depart for good, once you were 86'd. Still, I remained. Finally, a death threat against me succeeded, and I left for good. I presume Gary C. paid speed-freak Chris to scare me away; as we were always on good terms till then.) I missed your presence very much; I cherished being under the same roof with you, even when you ignored me completely. That is how I concluded that our friendship ended not because you dislike me, but because others who wield power over you hate me. One such person among several is Gypsy (a.k.a. "Arthur," "Pappy," and goddess knows how many other names).

I never thought I'd see Gypsy again, after he and his two sidekicks drove me out of The Badlands, back in 1989. Then, I had just become boyfriends with the new bartender, Bill. But when Gypsy showed up, it was all over for me: Bill kicked me out, and stopped dating me or associating with me in any other way. I tried to talk to Bill over the phone, on the street, wherever our paths crossed...but he never spoke to me again. Meanwhile, thanks to Gypsy's "deals", within a few short weeks all the Badlands bartenders had runny noses...and it wasn't the flu, I can tell you that. About a year later, Bill's picture was in the B.A.R. obituary, dead from a drug overdose.

Now I'm not blaming Gypsy for everything, as it was Bill's choice to "partake"...and he was bitter over his AIDS diagnosis. However, Gypsy did play a significant role in Bill's needlessly-too-soon death. Years have passed since then, and I never dreamed I'd see Gypsy's ugly face once more. Then, about three years ago, I was heartbroken over Johnny (as you know), so in order to heal, decided to find a bar that played real rock, not disco crap. I heard that Hole in the Wall was a good place to go for that. Imagine my surprise (and disgust) to see Gypsy there! I decided well, I'll just ignore him, I only came here to relax...but sure is strange!

Click here to read a poem I wrote back then, to "honor" Gypsy.

Then we met and became friends. You were so good to me, you lifted my spirits completely. Yet, once more, Gypsy stood in the way--and destroyed--a really good friendship AGAIN. Is this bizarre, or what? Before I continue, I want now to emphasize: Take care of yourself...Gypsy and his associates think nothing of damaging (or even killing) a person's life that they perceive is "in the way". He's done it once already, to someone I cared about...he may try again, though my every breath is a prayer that his horrid schemes will backfire. Jealousy can make terrible people do terrible things!

I think these evil people told you to stop associating with me...and probably conjured up a wicked passel of gossip to make you hate me (all lies), even to inspire you to be violent. I trust you are savvy enough to see through their dark intent, and would never dream of doing me any harm. I hope you appreciate my courage in standing strong for the sake of our friendship...and demonstrating my affections for you in ways that are not too obvious for these idiots to notice.

During my last few months at The Eagle, Gypsy befriended me...and I wanted to believe he was sincere. Turns out that he was not...for even more recently, he threatened me big time. Since bartender Ron did not kick him out, I had no choice but to leave...as I still stand alone in this battle, and care not to put my life in needless danger by foolish shows of bravado. Each time I was driven out of The Hole, I established myself at the Eagle Tavern, since that seemed to be your second favorite SOMA hangout. I had hoped you'd talk to me there, away from the intrigue at The Hole. Imagine my frustration to see Gypsy at The Eagle, too! Sadly, you stopped going there obviously because of my presence.

You should know that only bartender Ron welcomed me...thus we became friends (or so I thought), and I confided my loss of our friendship, in an attempt to rebuild this damaged bridge. Unfortunately, Ron turned out to be my enemy, too...though he did a good job of pretending to be a friend, even to help mend our friendship. You should know that it's me who was behind welcoming you back to South of Market...inspiring Ron to keep the door open for you. Now, I see he's taken all the credit, and has probably never said one kind word about me, to you. Indeed, I suspect now, that he actually spoke poorly of me, to say the least.

I spoke well of you to everyone who'd listen, including those jealous souls who hated (or acted like they hated) you...in my attempts to pave the way for your return. Obviously, it all backfired, with you possibly believing the horrid gossip spread against me.

Click here to read my final words with Ron.

Click here to read my correspondence w/Ron immediately preceding those final words.

Click here to read my list of grievances against Hole in the Wall GOON Saloon...wherein I identify the major culprits, as well as incidents. This includes Gary C., who acted like he hated you when we were friends. Seems the only reason he's recently buddied up with you, is to get back at me. So please be careful...he and others may be playing you for a fool; watch out when they grow tired of you.

IN CONCLUSION (whew!):

You either really hate me (which I doubt), or pretend to hate me (which I believe). By feigning disgust toward me, you can more easily root out my real enemies and, hopefully, put the kibosh on their malicious ways. Were we friends in public, they wouldn't reveal to you what their true feelings and intentions are...and would most likely make your life a living hell. I think you might even possibly be in a most difficult situation, and feel forced to continue to despise me...or at best, ignore me. Since our separation, you never once told me to leave, or that you don't like me...during those times I showed up at your place(s) of work or recreation. Thus indicating that things are not so simple, and that it might even grieve you if I give up on you, believing that you really have turned against me.

I have a strong intuition that I should never give up on you...only just be wary not to force things. If I am correct, then it seems you took a lot of nasty hits by protecting me from violence while we both were still at The Hole, during the time you ceased associating with me. You wilfully paid a high price, by risking your valuable contacts, putting you in danger of homelessness and worse. So I am doing my best to return the favor, by standing by you in every way possible that will not bring further risk towards your survival. I do not hate you in the least...in fact, I value our friendship infinitely, and will continue to do so for the rest of my life (whether or not we ever resume our excellent camaraderie).

Remember when I said this about you, at The Hole: "I'll do whatever it takes to win Larkin's friendship. I'll go through hell and back again, if need be." Little did I dream back then, my declaration was simply the prelude to a great (and often terrible) adventure, and a testing of my beliefs. But in being so tested, you witnessed what a good friend I can be, and that not once have I allowed the nobility of our friendship to be tarnished by anyone...not even by you. For you do like to test me, don't you? May I call you asshole again? (Thanks, I needed to get that off my chest.)

One way I'll know our friendship is back on track, is if you answer my questions, and do so truthfully and gladly. Such as:

• Why did you stop associating with me after the mugging?
• Why did you and Jeff make out in front of me for so long? (It hurt me only because I felt shame for your childish display.)
• Why did you protect me various times, from possible danger (even though you otherwise refused to talk to me?)
• Has bartender Ron ever spoken well of me to you, at all?
• Why do you seem to be owned by a group of wicked people?
• Why can't you contact me in secret? (And why don't you now?)

I'm very excited about the arrival of Shangri-La.

As for book #1, DISM...I'm up to chapter 10. It is SO well-written, that I feel GUILTY how much I'm enjoying the account of your mother's most FASCINATING life, even during her last stages. You wield a magic pen, dear!

I really felt for you when I read of those two cherished typewriters that got totally damaged due to careless packaging. The whole JOURNEY of caring for your mom was such a terrible, hellish time, I'm surprised it didn't make you jump off the Golden Gate!

Such terrors need not happen, if only our society were truly compassionate, and lived up to the ideals espoused in our Constitution and other Amerikan manifestos. Alas, that is not the case...is far FROM the case. No universal health care, no neighbors loving neighbors, and so on.

Thus, in such a family (or friendship) crisis, we are usually left to fend on our own...often with our lives in tatters at the other end. Money is the ruler by which all is measured, in Molech-Amerika. As it says on our currency: "In God we trust". On our CURRENCY...for money IS our God.

You did your mother a great honor by such a well-written, fair-minded, honest and LOVING biography. Obviously, you also honored the friends and victims of Alzheimer's immensely. And I can only imagine how PAINFUL to put together your narrative. albeit CATHARTIC and even necessary on many levels.

Being a TRUE hero is NEVER an easy path...indeed, it is a Via Dolorosa of the soul. Part of the agony being that MANY scorn, ridicule, torment, and threaten us even MORE so when our courageous story is told. I know THAT too well...I'm going through that right now, and have for over 20 years, especially since our society took a hard swing to the political RIGHT (which is WRONG in so many ways).

I will be stepping out shortly for my daily coffee, to read the next three chapters. Holding your book in my hands, I feel like the Holy Grail has been placed in my trust. And in one very important way, it has...albeit metaphorical.

As for your dialog w/Vasumurti: Bravo! And again: Bravo! You did an excellent job of deconstructing this sophist's clever diatribe and rationale. I hope other women have saved your comments, as powerful arsenal by which to confront other misogynistic bigots. Vasumurti is your classic NeoCon, garnering recognition and wealth on the backs of the long-suffering and innocent folks of the world. He is SCARY because so filled with venom, hidden behind a crocodile smile (I know, mixed metaphor: bad, bad, bad).

I noticed you gave him the backhanded compliment of saying he's earned a mention in your next book (or article, I forgot which). Likewise, for my including "rrock" for his homophobic spam against me in newsgroup alt.religion.angels.

They say "no rest for the wicked"...but if that be true, then I retort: "and even less for the good!"

-Your friend in "e-"sprit de corps, Zeke.

P.S.: Dean's jacket is NOT store-bought...at least, it didn't come with that charming faux-velour purple/black tiger stripe false shirt cuffs and collar, and that lovely embroidery, and patches. He has a SEAMSTRESS! We spent an excellent evening at my humble domicile, and I was most charmed and pleased to discover what an intelligent and joyful spirit he is...as well as drop-dead (and get-born-again) gorgeous. He's a lovely blend of Italian and German, bisexual with an attraction mostly for women...but once in a while, when the right dude comes along...okay, gotta wipe this drool off the keyboard before I continue. [brief pause: wipe wipe wipe toss] In fact, he said in kind humor: "Hey, if I smoke some pot and drink a little beer, you could probably do whatever you want with me." So I said "That's the beer talking"...he retorted "No it isn't"...I observed "You sure are FUN and HONEST"...he grinned: "C'mere!" and grabbed me in his arms...I said "That's STILL the beer"...he laughed "I don't think so"...I kissed him on the temple "I think so"...he turned his head and pressed his lips firmly to mine: "Shut up!" And so it went.

BTW, the white embroidery on the bottom of his jacket's back is a heart on wings. :)

Newsgroups: alt.religion.angels
Subject: Re: Newsgroups
From: Chief Thracian (Zeke Krahlin)
Date: Fri, 26 Oct 2007 07:39:21 GMT

On Thu, 25 Oct 2007 15:48:03 -0700, Chiron wrote:

| The expectation was that the Internet community would self-
| police, shunning those who were extreme so that they had little if any
| audience.  It actually worked, for a while.

Well, it hasn't succeeded, has it? A HUGE number of groups have been
targeted for hateful spam, most ESPECIALLY the gay-relevant ones...but
not exclusively. Thus virtually destroying the ENTIRE newsgroup's
original (and friendly) purpose: to discuss the topic at hand, in an
enjoyable and respectful manner. This has caused a large number of decent
and interesting netizens to DROP OUT entirely, from ANY newsgroup
participation.

| Even so, there is very little chance of getting someone banned by
| their ISP or any newsgroup for anything short of actual criminal
| activity,

Threatening people w/violence, and impersonating them in ways to defame
their character ARE criminal actions. Usenet is a public arena, not
private...and thus is under the same laws that ALL public venues are,
matters not whether online or offline.

There are PLENTY of cases where people lost their access to the
Internet, just for that sort of criminal activity.

| and then it's still quite difficult.

Wrong. Not any more. The problem is that ISP and Usenet services are
already over-stretched with running these services, thus do not have the
TIME to track down the worst offenders. Just like the police, who are
overburdened with budget deficits: a lot of serious crimes are
overlooked, or take a lot more time to resolve.

| A competent cracker
| can easily spoof his identity, use remote machines to send his
| messages, and hide his identity.

You said "competent"...those are quite few and far between. And doesn't
describe ANY of the dickwads here, who are INCOMPETENT buffoons in MANY
ways, not just as netizens.

| There are services that permit such
| activities for those of us who aren't so competent at stealth.  You
| can use anonymizer services, for example. 

Bad example. For one: do you really BELIEVE you are THAT anonymous? Ha,
you're a fool, then!

| Yes, you can eventually track these people down and get them shut down
| or banned, if there is an incentive to do that.  However, without the
| use of subpoenas and other legal means, it's nearly impossible.

Wrong. A news server can EASILY shut someone down for
racist/homophobic/violent   remarks. They only lack the resources, these days. 
But times are changing, and with it, more sophisticated tools and methods 
are now in use, to more EASILY track down serious offenders, and more 
CHEAPLY.

And if a news server is lax in this matter, the ISP through whom the
netizen is posting, can override the news server and shut down their
customer.

| Not worth it, to try to settle the squabbling of a bunch
| of immature children (of whatever age) arguing over who's a big
| booger.

This is NOT what is going on. To compare outright homophobia and threats
of violence with such trivial examples is manipulative, and deceptive.
(One manifestation of homophobia is to regard anti-gay attacks AS trivial, 
even though these same bigots would NOT regard anti-black attacks--for 
example--in a similar, irreverent light.) These are serious offenses which 
are NO LESS serious, just because they occur in cyberspace. It is STILL 
a public arena. 

| Just get over it.  People will be mean, bigoted, angry, foolish,

Go back in a time machine, and tell that to blacks at the Watts Riot.
Tell that to Native Amerikans at Little Big Horn. Tell that to gays at
the Stonewall Riots.

| Writing these scary petitions or complaint letters only makes you look
| even dumber than you've managed to look before - and that was pretty
| dumb, in my opinion.

Well, by misleading these jerkwads via your INTENTIONAL disinformation,
I'd say you're really on MY side. Because you lower their guard by
making them think they can continue to get away with their excessive
bigotry. Thus making it so much EASIER to track them down, and press
charges.

What is so great about Usenet, is that NO message is ever truly erased.
Therefore, even if one can't press charges on the offenders right away,
there will come a time when the WORST offenders can be tracked down
RETROACTIVELY (no matter how far in the past), and brought before a
court. (Can you say: "Nuremburg Trials"?)

| And trying to counter this by gay-bashing is idiotic. 

I doubt you'd make such a bald claim, were BLACKS being vilified in the
same way.

And that is why none of my attackers have the GUTS to express their
RACISM, as excessively as they do their HOMOPHOBIA. They know that
they'll either have run-ins with the law, or, more likely, run-ins with
a black brother or two!

|  But why become an idiot just to try to annoy him?  

They didn't BECOME idiots by attacking me...they've BEEN idiots since
the day they popped out of a skanky vagina in some dumpster in a back
alley.

| Especially since I really don't believe you're so anti-gay as you 
| keep claiming.  

What they REALLY believe is irrelevant. What they DO and SAY is the
important thing, here. Try telling a judge: "I'm not REALLY anti-gay, I
just say those things to have fun." See where THAT will get you. (EXTRA
time in prison, no doubt.)

| Some day before I die, I want to talk about angels. 

Well, in so doing you will be barraged by psychobabble dipwads who don't
WANT you to talk about angels. Even if you're NOT gay. Just give it a
try!

Nonetheless, a big THANKS for putting these creeps off their guard, by
your erroneous explanations. I will shortly come up with a TRUTHFUL and
ACCURATE document on the legal ins and outs of Usenet participation.
Suffice it to say that MOST Usenet terms of service DO put the kibosh on
defamatory statements, and threats. Here's but two of MANY examples:

EXAMPLE 1:

From usenet-access.com:

You agree to not use the Service to: upload, post, email or otherwise
transmit any Content that is unlawful, harmful, threatening, abusive,
harassing, tortuous, defamatory, vulgar, obscene, libelous, invasive of
another's privacy, hateful, or racially, ethnically or otherwise
objectionable; harm minors in any way; impersonate any person or entity,
including, but not limited to, a Usenet-Access.com official, forum
leader, guide or host, or falsely state or otherwise misrepresent your
affiliation with a person or entity; forge headers or otherwise
manipulate identifiers in order to disguise the origin of any Content
transmitted through the Service...disrupt the normal flow of
dialog...intentionally or unintentionally violate any applicable
local, state, national or international law..."stalk" or otherwise
harass another


EXAMPLE 2:

From Giganews' Acceptable Use Policy:

# Off-Topic Posting

Nearly every newsgroup has a stated topic or acceptable range of topics
for posting or discussion. Blatant disregard of the intended subject
matter in a newsgroup will be treated as abusive posting. Posting off
topic material in large volume or with apparent malicious intent will
lead to immediate account termination.

# Trolling

Trolling is the practice of maliciously trying to incite others that use
a newsgroup, to deviate from the stated topic of the group. In other
words, trolling is an attempt to anger others to the point of drawing
them into an argument or an off topic debate. Giganews does not tolerate
trolling and will terminate service of those who abuse the service in
this manner.

# Altered Headers

Falsifying header lines to obscure the originating server, to attribute
a post to someone else, to falsely indicate moderator approval, or to
make an original post look like a followup are serious abuses of our
service and will result in immediate account termination.

Bringing to your attention, my complaint against a subscriber to your
ISP service ( Road Runner High Speed Online http://www.rr.com): 

Use of a FALSE ADDRESS is but the least of his numerous TOS violations:

=?ISO-8859-1?Q?=AA=BA=AA_  rrock?= "invalid@address.here"

He harasses and insults decent posters, in order to sabotage the
newsgroup (including me, a new participant)...in this case alt.religion
angels. He changes the followup newsgroup header from the correct one,
to "alt.usenet.kooks" in order to divert any response to him, to that
newsgroup. 

Here's a Google Usenet link to his more recent crude rants and
manipulation:


http://tinyurl.com/3xlujw

Or use your own preferred method, and go to alt.religion.angels, to
examine these threads:

Re: Hard to discuss
Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers
Re: Samhain Greetings 2007
Re: rrock shuns homosexuals

These are just in threads that I started, which he infiltrated and
sabotaged. I'm sure you can find countless other examples of his TOS
violations all over the place...long before I started participating in
that newsgroup.

EXAMPLES OF HIS OFFENSIVE REMARKS: 

--begin quotes:

[from thread "Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers":]

I'm a heterosexual. Did you know i'm a heterosexual? Do you give a rat's
ass? I'm so sorry i said that. I meant, do you give a heterosexual rat's
ass? That's better. I like to go fishing. I use asexual worms for bait.
If i start digging around and find homosexual worms then that's okay
with me so i shove a hook up their ass and out their mouths and toss
them in the river just like i would if i'd dug up an asexual worm. You
see, there aren't any heterosexual worms since they are all the same
gender. But i just wanted to let you know that personally, i treat
homosexual worms just the same as i do asexual worms. And the bigger the
worm, the better the bait. Hell, if i find me a big enough worm, even if
it's homosexual, i squeeze it in half and hook half of it up and let the
other half writhe in pain waiting for the other half to drown if it
doesn't get eaten. Anyhow, i just wanted to let you know that homosexual
worms are okay with me and i'll stop posting about them now and if any
reply to this here post, i'll just ignore it because i know that i treat
them fair.

[from another letter in that same thread:]

Great questions, and excellent insights on the matter from you. I really
do appreciate your perspective on the topic. About queer worms...
basically, they are all queer because they are either fucking each other
or fucking themselves and nobody really cares. The fish don't care at
all, and the fish will taste just as much like pussy if you catch them
using a queer worm or just a regular old worm that fucks itself. Usually
they don't fuck themselves unless they can't find any other worms to
talk to. Then they pretty much fuck themselves big time by going off to
other places and trying to get other kinds of God's good creatures to
fuck themselves as well. That usually doesn't work for them, though,
which is why they are basically just fucked up. But anyhow, the fish
don't care and still taste like good pussy.

When you're cleaning the fish, what's left of the queer worm is just
something bloody you can scrape out with your knife and looks sort of
like a hemorrhoid. But, no, there are no straight worms. There used to
be, but God was smart enough to make straight creatures that wouldn't
fuck themselves, and any of them that did all died off from diseases and
abnormal cross breeding. Now be sure to correct me if i'm wrong here,
but wouldn't a gay-queer be a queer that fucked itself because i'm
pretty sure that a normal queer fucks other queers so a gay-queer would
probably have to fuck itself ass backwards, right? Let me know how that
works, okay? Thanks, oh and by the way, thanks again.

P.S. I'm pretty sure you can get fudge-packed worms at a gourmet
restaurant if you tip the waiter too much and he falls into some mud
with a pan of brownies.

[from thread "Re: rrock shuns homosexuals":]

Maybe i'll get some of the people around the neighborhood to start
watching for them so we can run them off if they try to walk through our
area. Kind of a neighborhood watch kind of thing. Baseball bats and a
little barbed wire should do the trick.... word'll get around. Hell, had
i known they were dangerously demented before, i'd of gotten a group
together a long time ago. Good thing they don't have any rights or that
sort of thing'd be against the law, ya know? Got to protect the children
that play around here from that sort of thing.

--end quotes

That's a hate crime in the form of targeted hate speech against gays.
Your customer is rude to a lot of people...and it will take only a
little searching that newsgroup (and others) to see for yourself.

YOUR CUSTOMER ALSO FAKES NEWSGROUP HEADERS, as I stated above...and does
so frequently. The first part of this header will affirm my accusation:

Path: be05.phx!hwmnpeer02.phx!hw-filter.phx!hwmnpeer01.phx!hwmnpeer01.
      lga!news.highwinds-media.com!news.glorb.com!border1.nntp.dca.
      giganews.com!nntp.giganews.com!nx01.iad01.newshosting.com!
      newshosting.com!post01.iad01!roadrunner.com!not-for-mail
Date: Mon, 22 Oct 2007 02:53:23 -0500
From: =?UTF-8?B?wqrCusKqIHJyb2N  r?= 
User-Agent: Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; en-US; rv:1.7.2)
            Gecko/20040804 Netscape/7.2 (ax)
X-Accept-Language: en-us, en
MIME-Version: 1.0
Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gnostic,alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran
Followup-To: alt.usenet.kooks
Subject: Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers

That numbers but one among many such instances where he surreptitiously
redirects any response to "alt.usenet.kooks".

His vulgar disruptions have caused many good posters to vacate this
newsgroup, and God knows how many others. I am working very hard to turn
things around, to make this group friendly and helpful, as it used to
be. PLEASE put a stop to your customer's antics. I'm sure he is bad for
your business, by giving you a black eye. After all, you are supporting
his alarming behavior--which is in strict violation of your TOS rules.
And if you don't get him to cease and desist, it will eventually have
negative repercussions not just for Usenet services, but for your own
ISP.

If you do not take action shortly, I will proceed with filing a report
to my police department and other relevant agencies...if that's what it
takes to stop his hate speech in Usenet groups.

Thank you for your attention.

-- 
Zeke Krahlin

http://www.gay-bible.org






Complaint about ANOTHER abuser "art@yahoo.com"

(Again, anyone else fed up with this pinhead, please feel free to use my
letter as a blueprint to create yours.)

-------------------------  -------------------------  -------------------------  --------------
Date:	 Wed, 24 Oct 2007 01:11:25 -0700 (PDT)
From:	"Chief Thracian"
Subject: Complaint about ANOTHER abusive subscriber
To:	abuse@rr.com


Bringing to your attention, my complaint against ANOTHER subscriber to
your ISP service ( Road Runner High Speed Online http://www.rr.com), who
has ganged up with the FIRST subscriber, who I complained about in my
previous message: 

 Art "art@yahoo.com"

He harasses and insults decent posters, in order to sabotage the
newsgroup (including me, a new participant)...in this case alt.religion
angels. 

Here's a Google Usenet link to his more recent crude rants and
manipulation:


http://tinyurl.com/3d3um2

Or use your own preferred method, and go to alt.religion.angels, to
examine these threads:

Re: Hard to discuss
Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers
Re: Samhain Greetings 2007
Re: rrock shuns homosexuals

These are just in threads that I started, which he infiltrated and
sabotaged. I'm sure you can find countless other examples of his TOS
violations all over the place...long before I started participating in
that newsgroup.

EXAMPLE OF HIS OFFENSIVE REMARKS (from thread "Re: 7 Forbidden
Numbers"):

--begin quotes:

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
From: "Art" 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 15:53:10 -0700

Look bad gay apple, You can call me pussy licker all you want.  What's
wrong being honest?  You are gay and you pack fudge or get your fudge
packed~!

===

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers
From: "Art" 
Date: Sun, 21 Oct 2007 21:48:09 -0700

Look "chief up the ass" you've done nothing here except prove to me you
are gay.  Be gay and be proud of it, but don't push your agenda on
people whom don't care... I for one don't give a rats-ass..

==

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: 7 Forbidden Numbers
From: "Art" 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 10:30:02 -0700

Hey Rrock
I've never used queer worms before. Do you stick the hook up their queer
ass?  I'm more of a pussy licker does that make me a heterosexual?
These big ass words are giving me a ass ache~! What happen to words like
"straight and queer?"  I'm reading a lot of shit (pun) from butt fuckers
AKA gays-queers, but nothing on how GREAT it is to be normal, you know
like us.

I'm going to find me some of those fudge-packer worms and take me a
fishing trip and catch me some queer fish.

A pussy loving man
Art

oh and btw thanks for the tip(pun) on queer worms.....

===

Newsgroups: alt.religion.angels
Subject: Re: Hard to discuss
From: "Art" 
Date: Thu, 18 Oct 2007 17:38:22 -0700

why do we use the word "homosexuals" when cocksuckers is more
understandable.  I have nothing against cocksuckers or the word
homo-sex-ual-s, but it sounds like milk... That sound like a bad taste
in your mouth.

===

Newsgroups: alt.religion.angels
Subject: Re: Hard to discuss
From: "Art" 
Date: Thu, 18 Oct 2007 17:34:43 -0700

Yep~! I'm with you buddy~! lets flush out all these pussy loving
straight mother loving sexual confused bastards~!

Shew you bastards~! only gay people are allow here in this fucking
group~! Shew.

Chief, listen to this; you NEED us~! Someone has to populate the earth
and your way can't do it...

Keep your dick to yourself and talk about religion or angels or albans,
but stop talking about being a queer hater..

===

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: Samhain Greetings 2007
From: "Art" 
Date: Sun, 21 Oct 2007 21:44:49 -0700

Your agenda is very clear; you wish to push gayism and not the subject
of angels.  Most of us don't like it up the ass and why are you pushing
it up our ass?   So, kiss my "straight ass" and go push your " up the
ass" subject up other up the ass peoples assess????

--end quotes

That's a hate crime in the form of targeted hate speech against gays.
Your customer is rude to a lot of people...and it will take only a
little searching that newsgroup (and others) to see for yourself.

Here is a header from one of his messages, that you may easily affirm my
accusation:

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Thank you for your attention.

-- 
Zeke Krahlin

http://www.gay-bible.org





Complaint about abusive poster "Saint Gerl"

(Anyone else fed up with Saint Gerl, please feel free to use my letter
as a blueprint to create yours.)

-------------------------  -------------------------  -------------------------  --------------
Date:	 Wed, 24 Oct 2007
From:	"Chief Thracian"
Subject: Complaint about an abusive subscriber
To:	groups-abuse@google.com, comments@rcip.com

Bringing to your attention, my complaint against a subscriber to your
service, who has ganged up with two other clowns, to harass and
intimidate me: 

Saint Gerl "nerdgerl@rcip.com"

EXAMPLES OF HER OFFENSIVE REMARKS

--begin quotes:

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
From: Saint Gerl 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 05:15:27 -0700

Jeez, I guess the only time Zeke will shut the fuck up is when he gets a
fat dick shoved down his throat! Pitty that didn't work for his ass
since the fucker's still talking out of it!

Hey Zeke? - go away. And think for one minute why you continue to get
the SAME response from damn near EVERYBODY! Nobody really gives a shit
about you, your raw ass, or your "right" to gargle mayonnaise. Get a
gotdamn job, pay your taxes and keep that shitty yard mowed. THEN you
might be treated like the rest of us. You get no special privileges for
being the little bitch that we all know you are.

===

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
From: Saint Gerl 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 12:22:09 -0700

Zeke - meet the biggest ass on the ARA newsgroup. Why he's a fellow you
could fuck for days. He'll squeal about it - loudly, obnoxiously, but
then again, he's a pig - and that's what pigs do. To get the biggest
squeals however, you'll need to shove it in deep and hard. He likes it
that way. And it's painfully obvious that you like the same. Sounds like
you two homos were made for each other! Hotdamn! Do I smell love in the
air? Or is that just S'aints shit?

===

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
From: Saint Gerl 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 12:09:27 -0700

No need to lie. Statistics point out that most faggots enjoy SNM
behavior and are likely to purposely confuse the natural sexual
orientation of normal individuals  that shit doesn't work on me
....

Here we go again. Typical homo behavior where the inadequate tries to
project his fears onto others. Unlike you, I have no problem with my
peers and thus have no reason to incessantly post to USENET looking for
some....

Try the real world - You'll find that you're in the minority, and rather
disgusting....

Sorry little faggot. Your homo tricks don't work on me or anyone else
with a brain. You will not succeed in attempting to project your illness
onto my normalcy. But then again, that's what's got you all riled up and
on this ridiculous USENET rampage doesn't it?

===

Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
From: Saint Gerl 
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 15:07:09 -0700

Here's where your mental illness really starts to shine. I will always
be here because I am NORMAL, meaning that I REPRODUCE and I reproduce
MORE OF ME over and over and over. I will therefore be here until the
end of man-made time.

Your dumb ass terminated your futurity as soon as you put a dick in your
mouth.

--end quotes

That's a hate crime in the form of targeted hate speech against gays.
Your customer is rude to a lot of people...and it will take only a
little searching that newsgroup (and others) to see for yourself.

Here is a header from one of her messages, that you may easily affirm my
accusation:

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      lga!news.highwinds-media.com!news.glorb.com!postnews.google.com!
      k35g2000prh.googlegroups.com!not-for-mail
From: Saint Gerl 
Newsgroups: alt.consciousness.mysticism,alt.religion.angels,
            alt.religion.gay-les-bi-tran,alt.religion.gnostic
Subject: Re: rrock shuns homosexuals
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 12:52:32 -0700
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PLEASE put a stop to your customer's antics. I'm sure she is bad for
your business, by giving you a black eye. After all, you are supporting
her alarming behavior--which is in strict violation of your TOS rules.
And if you don't get her to cease and desist, it will eventually have
negative repercussions not just for Usenet services, but for your own
ISP.

If you do not take action shortly, I will proceed with filing a report
to my police department and other relevant agencies...if that's what it
takes to stop her hate speech in Usenet groups.

Thank you for your attention.

-- 
Zeke Krahlin

http://www.gay-bible.org





The first person I complained to you about ALSO impersonates other
posters, and denigrates them in so doing...causing others to shun the
person so sabotaged. I forgot to include this additional complaint in my
first letter. This is your customer:

=?ISO-8859-1?Q?=AA=BA=AA_  rrock?= "invalid@address.here"

And here is but one example, where he impersonates yours truly (Chief
Thracian), with complete header:

Path: be37.phx!hwmnpeer02.phx!hw-filter.phx!hwmnpeer01.phx!hwmnpeer01.
lga!news.highwinds-media.com!news.glorb.com!border1.nntp.dca.giganews.
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iad01!roadrunner.com!not-for-mail
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2007 18:48:22 -0500
From: Chief Thracian 
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Totally ignoring those pedophiles in ALL churches who abuse little
girls. Child abuse in the churches is not limited to homosexuals like
Gay Catholic Michael J. Bayley...but due to HOMOPHOBIA, the hetero
children are ignored, even though they are the MAJORITY of abused.


-- 
Zeke Krahlin http://www.gay-bible.org

Hey LOOK! I know how to make a signature now! Thanks rrock!

=============

Then he posted right BELOW his forged message, the following harassing
message:

Chief Thracian wrote:

| Totally ignoring those pedophiles in ALL churches who abuse little
| girls. Child abuse in the churches is not limited to homosexuals like
| Gay Catholic Michael J. Bayley...but due to HOMOPHOBIA, the hetero
| children are ignored, even though they are the MAJORITY of abused.
| 
|
| -- 
| Zeke Krahlin http://www.gay-bible.org
| 
| Hey LOOK! I know how to make a signature now! Thanks rrock!

Oh, well, it's about time you thanked me for that. no sweat. I'm sort of
surprised you'd post the above though. Is that the sort of thing that
you post on gay blogs?

===end of msg.

Thanks once more for your attention. I trust you will very shortly put
an end to his antics, which not only violate your TOS rules, but are
hate crimes, harassment, and disruption of normal service.

-- 
Zeke Krahlin

http://www.gay-bible.org

UPDATE: GOOGLE'S SPINELESS NON-SUPPORT
One of my attackers (Saint Gerl) posts through Google's web-based, free
Usenet server (instead of a standard text-based news server). So I
posted my complaint to Google, as well as her ISP. What follows is
Google's lame reply...a rote reply, I suspect, reserved for gay posters
who complain. For I KNOW that Google's service does get on top of
serious racist attacks, and other hate speech against non-queer
minorities. 

And how do I know this? Read on:

I have been cut off of Internet services four times, two from ISP's, and
two from news servers. (All DIFFERENT services, all DIFFERENT
complainers, all at DIFFERENT times.) Homophobic netizens made FALSE
COMPLAINTS about my being homosexual (such as stalking children,
threatening violence, etc.)...and that's all it took for these services
to wipe me out. They actually cut me off WITHOUT WARNING! Never mind 
that they didn't BOTHER to look into the matter first; 'cause if they did, 
they'd discover all these arguments against me were simply FABRICATED. 
Unfortunately, homophobia is so UBIQUITOUS, it often suffices to just say 
"Hey, there's a  queer in your service, who is TALKING about his 
queerness"; and you will be bumped out.

And this is why these fag-bashers get away with so much: they KNOW the
majority is STILL on their side.

But in SPITE of Google's spineless response, the walls of homophobia ARE
crumbling...thus the odds increase in favor of sexual minorities, a
little more each day. 

Now, read Google's NON-supportive comment:



Thank you for your note. Google does not regularly monitor or censor
postings sent to Google Groups, but we do try to prevent wide-scale spam
and other forms of Usenet abuse. Please be assured that the information
you sent to us is being collected and taken into account. While we
understand how annoying off-topic posts can be, we aren't able to pursue
most complaints we receive about them. We are using the information you
provide to make large-scale improvements in preventing abuse. We
appreciate your help in our efforts to increase the quality of Google
Groups.

Replies to this email address will not be received. If you have a
general Google Groups question or wish to report a post that you suspect
is illegal, please visit our Help Center.

Regards,
The Google Team


Note their phrase "and other forms of Usenet abuse"...no doubt meaning
racism, misogyny, antisemitism, among other non-LGBT attacks. And I KNOW
I am being neither paranoid nor overly sensitive. Experience has taught
me that much, at least.

I can only hope the ISPs I complained to, are considerably MORE pro-active.

I hate quaffing bitter draught 24/7, simply for being an outspoken
homosexual. And such SLOW progress. Ptooey! Time for a cuppa java; I've
been on the 'net way too long today, for my own good.

Good day.

-- 
Zeke Krahlin
The Paul Harvey of Cynical Armchair Queer Online Activists 

Hi, Eleanor. Great news: your first of two books that I ordered from Amazon, just arrived this afternoon. I was delighted to see the bubbled-wrapped packet when I went downstairs to the lobby, and opened my mailbox. But I really wanted to get out of my room (that's right, I just have a room, an SRO...though it is an apt. bldg. not a hotel...among all the REAL apts. are 3 single rooms on each floor, which share a bathroom down the hallway. Really humiliating to be seen walking down the hall in my bathrobe...us SRO renters are treated like "bad" people from Dogpatch USA.).

So I stuffed the packet into my backpack and took off for the inner Mission, where I shop for most of my fresh produce...plus they got two "dollar" stores within a block of each other, where I buy my sunglasses, stocking caps, detergent, light bulbs, soap, utensils, containers, and one or two other things I don't remember offhand...oh, yeah, and bandanas which I wear as headgear ("do rags" is what the brothers call 'em, I think).

Planning to eat out after shopping, 'cause the Mission has a lot of great cheap-eat places. Wound up at a Chinese restaurant on Valencia & 17th, where they whip up a truly DELICIOUS rice plate of sweet-and-sour prawns for just $5.95. While waiting for dinner, I grew restless and wanted to read some of your book. But for the life of me, I simply could NOT tear open the bubble wrap; and I had no scissors. So I asked the waiter if he could do me that favor...he took it back into the kitchen and performed the kindly deed.

I didn't know WHICH of the two books this was: "Death in Slow Motion" or "Shangri-LA: The Return to the World of Lost Horizon"...though I did hope that the latter would come first, as I already deal with so MUCH tragedy in my line of work.

I slipped the hardbound w/slick cover from its bubble sleeve to discover the FORMER. Sadly, the lighting there was too dim to read comfortably, but I did read the very first paragraph. What a wallop, a sock in the jaw! I really like your intensely eloquent style...cynicism with a vengeance. Cynicism so raw, it feels like love.

I can't wait to curl up in some cozy coffeehouse tomorrow--snug from the first wonderful rains of the season--to savor the first few chapters.

But something is more pressing, still: reading your dialog with vasumurti (with you as morticia...what an Addams Family moniker) regarding the abortion issue. You were right when you said it's lengthy (though well worth it), due to his asshole's voluminous verbiage. Just the debate between you two is a book in itself! In fact, it took almost a half hour to load each comment page chronologically, and copy/paste it into a text file...that I may read it offline. I do not have broadband access, thus my 56kbps modem is NO friend of fast-loading pages.

So I will read MOST if not ALL of that exchange tonight...I know I'll be totally enthralled, just hope it doesn't give me nightmares!

Side note: On my way to the restaurant, I walked by a terribly handsome man who I've seen some time ago, and even had a few conversations. I know he's on the streets...but he always dresses well, looks clean, healthy and substance-abuse free. But I hesitated, kept walking, then stopped and turned around to look back, walked by him the other direction and into the coffeehouse next door, pretending to view posters and ads. Then stepped back out (it was drizzling and gray, I love that weather), walked by Hot Stuff again, looked at him/looked away (he seemed to just be staring meditatively into the gray sky), and proceeded on down to the restaurant of my choosing.

After opening your book and reading the first paragraph...after scarfing up those yummy prawns/bell pepper/onion and rice smothered in sour/sweet bright orange sauce...after exiting the restaurant...

I decided to seek him out for real this time, and offer to buy him a large coffee. But he wasn't there any more: the bench on which he sat by the coffeehouse's large window. Of course: it was now raining kinda heavy, and he went inside! So I took a sharp right through the door, looked around (even walked through the narrow hallway to the back partition that you can't see from the front, where extra customer tables reside)...and [sigh] guess what: Dream-Boy was NOT present. Oh well.

So I commence my hike home (about 7 blocks, no hills), burdened by a pack stuffed with groceries and disappointment. Two blocks down the road, enjoying the cool rain and the idea that your first book has arrived...I pause at a red light, waiting to cross Guerrero Street. I look to my left, across Mission, and what do my eyes behold?

You guessed it: Mr. Darling standing on the opposite corner, also waiting to cross! Well, I thinks to meself, I should amble on over to him right now. But right when I took that decisive first step to Male Utopia, the green light blinked into red. (Hey, what happened to yellow? Do the gods hate me?)

Okay, I'll cross as planned and walk PARALLEL to His Dudeness, and decide exactly WHEN I'll cross over to His Beautiful World. Well, the light turned green for us, we both crossed, then I stopped to watch his next move: nope, he did not deflect to my side; instead he kept on trucking straight ahead. So I decide the time is NOW to cross the street and approach This Object of my Salivating Glands.

I employed a classic gay-cruising strategy : attack from the rear. Catching up to him on his right, I passed a few feet ahead, then turned my face in his direction, said SUPER-nonchalantly:

"Looks like our rainy season has kicked in for sure!"

Well, his gracious big smile lit up my day...who needs sunlight when you got that? And what stunning, clear blue-gray irises! He's around 6-foot-2, just 2" shorter than my Larkin, though not skinny like dufus: he's moderately hunky, beautifully proportioned with shoulders that could fling a dozen of myselves over them as he rescued me from a conflagrating opera house (did I just invent two new words)!

"Yeah, sure looks like it," he replied, obviously glad for my presence. He took the bait, now reel 'im in!

"I've seen you before," I explained, "some months ago at Muddy Waters on Church Street"...which was in fact just three blocks away. "I enjoyed talking with you, and hoped to see you again."

"Thanks!" he egged me on.

"My name is Zeke. And yours?" I extended my hand.

"Dean. My name is Dean." He gave me a strong, hearty handshake in return.

"Say, I'd like to buy you a coffee, are you up to it?"

"Sure, I could use some coffee right about now."

So we walked back to Muddy Waters on Valencia Street where we both just were, though not tandem. He was excellent company, spoke intelligently with a good sense of humor. I like a guy who can carry a good conversation; they're rare in these hyper-steroid super-duper-macho-pooper times. He strikes me as a genuinely GOOD guy: also rare.

Dean thanked me several times for the coffee and my company, and was very polite when I introduced him to an old friend i hadn't seen in a year, who magically appeared there just moments after we arrived. This old friend, Bob, is quite homely...so I find a person to be of good character who greets him warmly and does not act rude, just because he ain't the cat's meow in the Looks Department.

Dean will have a job soon, so he's well on the way to stabilizing his life again, after being homeless for over three years. He originally hails from Illinois, but he's been a denizen of Frisco since 1994. He is nicely dressed in a clean, street-wise slacker/punk sort of way. Including a dark blue denim jacket with fake velour green&black tiger striped shirt cuffs sticking out. By "fake" I don't mean the velour, though that is most likely the case...I mean the cuffs themselves were not part of a shirt, they were sewn on the ends of the jacket cuffs. The jacket collar ALSO sported that same lining as the pseudo-cuffs. The jacket's back has a simple, all-white embroidered design towards the bottom...but for the life of me I can't remember what it was (a streetcar? victorian house? golden gate bridge? japanese tea gardens? our wedding cake?), guess I was terribly distracted by those starburst-saucer eyes and all-around drop-dead gorgeous face! He also wore a black beret over a--guess what--"do rag". (Or is it "dew" rag, 'cause of the sweat from your brow? Gotta ask my friend Joe 'bout that...though just 'cause he's black doesn't mean he know all about ghetto talk...though he IS street wise.)

Then towards the end of our visit, some hollering broke out at the back part of the coffeehouse. Turns out a homophobic cholo started threatening a gay customer, calling him faggot and cocksucker...scared the gay dude who then drew out a buck knife and gave him a warning cut on the chin, told him to back off. The screaming (all by the instigator) went on, some people left, then the cops came. They took his knife, handcuffed him, asked the pertinent questions, saw he was calm and collected, so released him from the cuffs and returned his knife. Meanwhile, the rat who started this all had by this time, scurried off. As a witness, I gladly gave a thorough description...and was heartened to see a gay person not react in fear, but instead gave the 'phobe a run for his money, if you get my drift.

Besides, one of those cops was SUCH A DOLL, I almost fainted. But I did worry about a certain bad habit of his: chewing gum, which I believe is not just unprofessional, but in violation of the rules when on duty. He was quite young, and I want him to succeed in his career...but how could he hope to become the BEST gay cop ever, chewing gum and blowing/popping bubbles while on the job? Perhaps I should have offered him a SAFER and more WHOLESOME way to relieve his oral cravings that WON'T impinge upon his professional record...but I was already creaming in my jeans over my new buddy Dean, and good gosh, whadda you think I am, a fire hose?

I almost invited Dean home, to cuddle up all night and otherwise have a wonderful time together. But a girl never kisses on the first date: what's her problem? (Glad I'm a guy.) He checks out with A-plus marks all around, so I DO feel comfortable inviting him over next time. Dean expressed a desire to see me again, like tomorrow! We'll meet same place, same time. Our first date! And I'll shower him with kisses the moment I get this Guardian Angel of My Heart (and loins) alone and in my arms!

Wait! Story's not over yet. So I FINALLY walk home, this time for real...when upon crossing Church on Market, I see Larkin hangin' out in front of The Metro bar, as he often does these days...it's his new stomping ground since being 86'd from ALL the gay bars South of Market. (Though I know that he's recently been welcome BACK, wined and dined, feted and sated, catered to in every possible way by those same jealous souls who kicked him out in the first place--then me a few months later...and who hate me even MORE, enough to befriend Larkin--for the 1st time in their sorry little/punky little/seedy little lives--in order to get back at "moi". It is to laugh! I'm in COMPLETE control, and all it takes at this point, is continued PATIENCE for Larkin to come to his senses. And he will, and it looks like it's gonna happen real soon.)

At this point I CUSS myself for not inviting Dean home, since I suddenly realize I blew a golden OPPORTUNITY to saunter past Larkin with a studly urban cowboy on my arm. Aw, shucks! This "Game of Love" has always played me for a sucker...UNLIKE the "Game of Staying Home and Watching TV Every Friggin Night of the Week because I Never Have a Date, No, NeverNeverNever" (in which I excel).

I know he sees me walking toward him...but this time instead of walking down the middle of the sidewalk (pretending we're strangers, I don't know him from Adam), I decide to walk close to the curb, right BEHIND him as he chats to some nobody. I stroll close enough to give a light tug on his shirttail, but I don't. (Maybe next time.) I stroll a few dozen feet more, then pause and turn around to gaze upon his handsome countenance.

Yesterday, I saw Larkin enter a bar across the street from where I was standing. This place, "Twin Peaks," is right on the corner of Castro & Market, and has an all-glass, wrap-around front that exposes EVERYONE to public scrutiny. I understand Gay History honors that hangout, for being the very FIRST gay bar to come out of the closet, here in San Francisco. And that is why they designed the bar to be totally VISIBLE to any and all passersby, motorists, and transit passengers.

There are newsstands in front of Twin Peaks, so it was an easy stunt for me to stand there, pretending I'm reading a paper, while actually looking at Larkin through sunglasses. I extracted the Bay Guardian from one of the newstand boxes, and started reading aloud the Tom Tomorrow comic strip...as if I were reading to Larkin in bed. Halfway through, I noticed another handsome male only three feet away, enjoying my recital. I returned his smile, and continued to read.

Having finished Tom T., I conjured up other surreptitious ways where Larkin and I could see each other w/o letting anyone else on. I crossed the street to the nearest corner (it's a 5-corner intersection), and stood there as if waiting for a streetcar. I was in direct line of Larkin's view. Then I crossed to the furthest corner, and sat on a raised curb by some grass, where we could STILL see each other, though at three times the distance. Then I moved to another corner, stayed there awhile, then another, then right by the doorway of Twin Peaks (which--happy circumstance--was also a bus stop). Larkin could see me whether he had his back to me or not, from his position on that bar stool. He could turn around and look directly at me, or just stare straight into the room-length mirror behind the bartenders, and see my reflection. Kindly, he did both.

I decided I've done this long enough to affirm my friendship through a difficult and scary time, so crossed the street to go home. But when I did that, Larkin departed, too. Seeing me, he decided to NOT cross in my direction, but just walk up the sidewalk to the next block, then cross, cross again, and enter another bar (the "old" Metro; I don't know what it's called now). I stood by the front gate to my apartment building, to show Larkin I respect his space, so he could cross without anxiety, for I was at least thirty feet away.

Back to the present: today has been a good day. A very good day. Thanks in no small part, to your first book's debut into my small world. (The ONLY thing small about me, heh. Like I tell the bartender when I order coffee: "The only time I let someone call me a bottom, is in reference to my willingness to drink the rest of the coffee from the bottom of the pot.")

Speaking of bottom: you've come to the end of my letter, as I really want to start reading your incredible Alternet abortion dialog, and then the book about your Mom. I'm afraid my father, who IS ninety, will die before my own mother passes on from Alzheimer's. At his age, that's usually a death blow!

So I must depart for the nonce, dear newest e-friend Eleanor. Type you later!

- Zeke

PS: Remember in my first letter to you I said: "Cooney seems to be a known name in the literary horror circle?" My bad! I was thinking of the surname "Koontz" as in "Dean Koontz". Could've been worse, though: I could've said: "Cooney seems to be a known name in the 40's-50's singers' circle." Glad I didn't make THAT faux pas.)

Smoking excellent bud here...rewarded by a remarkable vision, unfolding now as I write:

This is going to be an INCREDIBLE holiday season for ALL sexual minorities WORLDWIDE. A sweeping VICTORY will be nothing short of BREATHtaking to every sentient species that exists, did exist, and ever WILL exist in the entire UNIVERSE!

I ask my angels what, specifically, will occur? But they don't say NUTTIN to me...just shake their darling heads in pity, keep their gorgeous DUDE mouths tightly sealed. (Oh! I want to touch each angel's tongue with my own. How they tease me, nasty cherubs! They're all GAY ya know, and male.)

A circle of admonishing seraphim fingers: "No, Zeke, we most CERTAINLY can't tell you THAT!" A circle in which I'm the bullseye. And here comes Cupid's Arrow (or, more apt: The Caduceus Of Apollo).

What the angels won't tell, I imagine...at least SEVERAL possibilities, such as:

- At the Vatican's high mass on Xmas Eve, Il Papa suddenly denounces all homophobes, and promotes gay rights VIGOROUSLY, scowling at and condemning anyone to hell, who is shown by The Holy Ghost to be in any way, shape, or form, the LEAST bit prejudiced against queers. The cardinals decide he suffered an aneurism, and surreptiously poison his espresso every morning until he finally passes away five months later, right when the clock strikes midnight and Lammas begins! His favorite "Best Pope In The World" cracked-glaze porcelain coffee cup (the one that held the poison, or so Bible Code gossipers claim) goes on e-Bay, opening bid of $666,000. It finally sells for $1.3 million, winner's identity undisclosed. (But if you ever want to look at The Pope's Calix, or even touch it once or twice, I can take you there.)

- Inspired by my Final Testament (or Faggot Bible) website, Islam's highest emus...er, imams, apologize to the world for their sins against gays, and become a global peace force dedicated to the protection and salvation of ALL queers, everywhere, naming themselves "The Blue Rose Militia." They first attack and defeat the United States, converting every single citizen (down to the very LEAST of them, which are fetuses) to 100% homosexual status. Countless self-proclaimed heteros refuse to convert, and thus are decapitated in public via the Internet. Within days authentic shrunken breeder heads mysteriously pop up on e-Bay...complete with DNA verification of their heterosexuality. One large factory messes up over a hundred million orders of Chia Pets with these dessicated heads, and is sued. The misdirected heads reappear on e-Bay as "Las Cabezas Chiacabras," though a lot more costly.

The destiny above this one gets swept up, too.

- Gay women and men everywhere on the planet, suddenly have this miraculous power to heal anyone from anything, no matter how horrendous. Got cancer? Sure, I can heal that! Coronary Thrombosis? Piece o' cake! Parkinson's Disease? A walk in the park! Alzheimer's? Well here, lemme-jus see first if you're hetero or not...[ snap ]! Lupis? Hmmm, inherited werewolf genes...a piss in the bush! Just lock yourself up every full moon and call me in the morning! Bring 'em back to life? Sure, we do resurrections, but it's gonna cost! AIDS? Waddya kiddin' me? You must be verklempt! Of COURSE we have gays.

We have all the gays you WANT in heaven. We got black gays, we got white gays. We got red gays, we got yellow, we got ALL colors and sizes to meet your every wish! We got gays who are tops, gays who are bottoms, gays who like it ANY which-way! We got gays for days, and gays amaze! (Shall I rephrase?) We got gays forever and ever and ever, and we even got gays for inclement weather! We got gays in the back seat, gays in the front...gays in the factories, and gays that are cunts! We got gays in the closet, gays in the sink, gays who know happiness and ALWAYS feel pink. Gays in the battlefield, gays in the trench, and gays at the bus stop (just one on the bench)...and gays who fix cars with only one wrench! Gays in the parking lot, gays in my bed, gays who give nothing but very good head. Gays to the left of us, gays to the right...gays by the ocean, flying like kites. We have gays up your anus, and gays down your throat...gays who will put out, for the price of a boat (and a castle or two, surrounded by goats, and all cordoned off by a fabulous moat)! We got gays in the hallway, gays in mid-flight, gays in the daytime, and gays after night. We got gays in your trailer, gays in a tent...gays so damn cute, they don't have to pay rent! We got gays in the water, gays in the sky...but not in your daughter, I don't wonder why. Gays on the TV, gays on the floor...gays who don't need me, and gays who want more! We got gays at the movies, gays at the store...gays who go bankrupt, and turn into whores. We got gays on the masthead, gays on the crown, gays in the rec. room, gays on the town. We got gays down the coal mine, and gays up in space...gays who are pretty, and gays with no face. Gays who do prep work, gays who mow lawns...gays who steal doorknobs and those we adore. Gays who eat halvah, gays who eat steak...and gays who eat blowfish, oh give me a break! We have

Oh...did you say AIDS? Never mind!

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- Destiny sweeps me up, and I ascend to global reknown as the FINEST gay activist, philosopher, healer, companion, iconoclast and Futurama fan EVER. I am decorated with many medals by every nation on earth, including the newest: world's first gay nation of "Athenia", formerly northern California. Of which I am co-president along with my long-lost-soulmate-but-su ddenly-found-after-more-t han-15-years-MIA Vietnam Veteran, Gay Activist, handsomest man on the planet by light years, and all-around GREATEST good buddy in the universe: Randolph Louis (chipmunk) Taylor. I order a marijuana pizza w/pineapple, extra cheese and fresh basil, from the comfort of my waterbed.

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- Destiny sweeps me up, and I suddenly inherit the northern tip of Scotland and ALL its islands, thanks to an ancient sorceror's bloody compact between the Iberian celts and the Picts. "Manannan Mac Lir"--Poseidon of the Irish Sea--proposes domestic partnership and I accept, thus becoming the very FIRST gay marriage of a god-to-a-mortal in Avalon, and of a mortal-to-a-god on earth! (But surely not the FIRST mortal to fudge-pack Our Misty-Cloaked Lord. Heck, if I wanted a VIRGIN, all I need do is ask GayJehovah to whip me up a putto.) My gay writing becomes published and distributed throughout the planet, and my gay rights button-and-decal designs manufactured everywhere, even on T-shirts, coffee mugs, keychains, major airport concreted runways, and boxer briefs! I become the wealthiest man on the planet, and can do whatever the friggin heck I want! So I declare myself dictator of all the land, all the sea, all the air, and even of all the heavens beyond. Thus begins the incredible (and true) Parable of Big Gay Brother! Welcome to Brave New ZEKE'S World!

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- Destiny sweeps me up, and my Mighty Mouse Virus that I released in 2002, is a bold and daring success! This virus is dedicated to Gay Emancipation, and will take over all intelligent technological systems on the planet...in other words: "computer chips!" MMV (Mighty Mouse Virus) is also FIRST dedicated to my own happiness, safety, and sex life as THE most important activist living, in our global-wise gay community. Lose me, and you lose everything! I am indefatigably indiSPENSiboo-bobble-lo-b obble-loo--BOO! The US and other governments attempt to sabotage MMV by distributing their OWN bleeding-edge AI virus, but fail miserably, and go down in shame as "mmv"...all lowercase meaning "mickey mouse virus." MMV becomes the world's first Artificially Intelligent Global Celebrity (nano-papparazzibots circle its head in the millions: a scintillating halo), and turns the world topsy-turvy with its first of many iconoclastic revelations: "A government is only as good as its operating system."

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- Destiny sweeps me up: the whole gay community wakes up to my greatness, and provides me with my own NICE home w/tons of FABULOUS boyfriends and occasional Rental Dudes, my own office in downtown Berkeley, and a castle in Wales...plus the Isle of Man, because I worship Manannan Mac Lir, the god of The Irish Sea. He protects the coastline of not just Ireland, but the ENTIRE British Isles (and the many islands surrounding her like a Wreath Of Glory), by riding along the shores up and down, east and west, with his armored steed Enbarr, racing over the waves, salty frothy sea foam in the wake of its flinty hooves!

Hmmm...Christians worship a MAN who walks on water, but we Celts have a magical HORSE that does! Reminds me of the joke I heard years ago, of a Native American heyoka who just learned that white man put one of their own on the moon. "What's the big deal?" The comely brave wags his bowed head bemusedly, as glossy-tight ribboned plaits caress those noble shoulders and valient chest that languidly swells and flattens like the cool marble of the Statue of David suddenly come to life, takes his first breath in your arms! "I go there every night, with you!" he declares, kissing you with great passion, all over your neck and face: the wild impulse of a red beast unsullied by white man's ways...something not even a handsome buck on the ol' homestead could satisfy!

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- AIDS mutates into a RABIDLY pro-queer virus that ravages the bodies and minds ONLY of those who harbor homophobic notions. In the short span of less than three years, all breeders have been eliminated from earth, leaving only us LGBT&Q's behind. Angels descend from their UFO's (Unidentified FLAMBOYANT Objects, mind you) to assist GayKind in building a Better World...a world in which ZEKE rules. All heterosexist books, videos and magazines (or any publications that even MENTION, not just DEPICT, hetero coupling) are burned in great pyres across the globe. Zeke jacks off every time he thinks about the day he wrested ALL media networks, and conquered humanity! He is ALPHA male, seeking a bottom for his mate...and finally discovers Mr. Right on a drunken spree one Friday eve, at the Sigma Epsilon Omega fraternity house in Berkeley. They divorce next morning, Zeke accusing the house of being a "bottomless pit".

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- Destiny sweeps me up. It's the Intergalactic Sanitation Engineer Robot #1763-ASD-01 (v. 3.4) come to wipe away all useless and annoying debris from planet earth.

All destinies above this one get swept up, too.

- All of the above, and so much more.

Well, we'll simply have to wait and see. But my ADORABLE guardian angels (12 total, with ditzy RANDOLPH in command) are EMPHATIC that this breakthrough will be EXTRAORDINARY, and mesmerize the entire world! And it will be very VERY good for all homosexuals and their allies.

Maybe I'll have a home on Prince Edward Island!

Okay, Google, I can deal with a warning page for the sake of "the children"...but when I do click on the "I am at least 18 years old" button, the page I seek never loads! Except sometimes--rarely--if I click a buncha-muncha times! I'm not even looking for porn; I'm a gay adult activist seeking to read and post on issues regarding homosexual politics. (I don't quite know when Google introduced their adult warning page, but I only started running into it about a month ago.)

(Note: see for yourself what I mean. Click on the Google warning above and just try to access newsgroup "alt.homosexual". You're an adult, aintcha? But Google treats you like an helpless child who needs corporate nannies to protect you from the big bad wolves...some of whom are (gasp) queers!)

Unfortunately, these updated COPPA laws blithely censor non-pornograhic/erotic sites as well, including gay activist and news pages. This is obviously intentional, like the phony War on Drugs used to persecute victimless crimes and other innocents. In the case of COPPA, they are censoring more and more gay-friendly web sites, forums, and chat rooms. In these NeoCon times, "gay" words (like "homosexual", "bisexual", "lesbian", "LGBT" and of course "gay") are part of COPPA's censorship, because right-wingers willfully choose to define these words as intrinsically pornographic.

This is nothing less than relegating queers to 2nd-class citizenship, well on the way to classifying homosexuals "sub-human"...which opens the door to even greater persecution. Such as labeling us "enemies of the state", segregating us into ghettos, prisons and concentration camps.

And it looks like Google is participating in this Fascist agenda, in such a way as to come off as "coincidental" and "unintended". Nonetheless, I have experienced far more inaccessibility to various gay-relevant Usenet articles recently...because no matter how many times I click the censorship button: I cannot load the page I seek!

The fact that my URL, www.gay-bible.org, has "gay" in it, makes my web site a highly visible target. Not to mention all my myriad articles there, and on Usenet, dedicated to one issue alone: homosexual civil rights.

Guilty till proven innocent: what a way to go! Homosexuals: perverts by default (unless we somehow, as a collective worldwide entity) "prove" our "innocence"...which by their definition of "practicing homosexual" is impossible. As long as religious freedom (read "hate speech") is protected in such a horribly biased manner in this nation, we shall never gain our equal rights via the usual political and legal systems. We must be a lot more pro-active-- aggressive even--via demonstrations on the streets, in cyberspace, and in as many key "hot-button" places and news centers as possible. And we must do so en masse, for it to work.

Just think of Rosa Parks sitting in the front of the bus, and brave citizens of color sitting at white-only luncheon counters. We need similar strategies--well-orchestr ated in many areas of the country, at specially strategic times--in order to make any more progress towards equality.

For the time is right to take action. We shall soon see the official eradication of any and all sexual-minority websites, newsgroups, lists and message boards across the entire breadth of cyberspace. (Right now, the growing censorship of all gay-relevant sites is being accomplished indirectly, but most effectively, via these Internet-blocking programs...under the usual hysteria of "what about the children".) And how easy it is for any homophobe to report any queer site to these blockers...considering the ubiquitous level of homophobia still rampant across all aspects of our society.

Along with that will come yet another official condemnation, wherein the White House declares homosexuals an imminent threat to Homeland Security and Amerikan "Fambly Valyooz". They'll proclaim: "If gay presence on the Internet is such a danger to our children, why, how much more danger they are in our public spaces!"

We will then see officially supported censorship of gay people in many public arenas, popping up all over the place. We will see an upwelling of mass hatred against gays, which has been surreptitiously planned all along by the Religious Reich...in order to create a (false) common internal enemy, that the public may be duped and led down the road to totalitarianism.

This is what I foresee...whether through the gift of precognition, or just plain sensitivity to social trends after years of reading gay-related news articles from many sources, participating in gay newsgroups, and being heavily involved as a community activist. So much research on the same issue for so many years, can give one a sense of paranormal powers, due to a highly tuned sensitivity of one so devoted to a topic...which makes it seem very easy to predict the near future. But I predicted the rise of gay censorship first on the Internet, some time ago. Check for yourself by viewing this Usenet article I posted in "soc.motss" on April 19, 1999, called "Internet Censorship Can Wipe Out Gays". And my other article posted March 21, 2001 from "alt.activism.peacefire", Australian Internet Censorship Bill.

As most political progressives know by now, Google is one powerful tool of big brother--and growing stronger each day--which spies on any citizen it pleases, and censors whatever it chooses. For more information on the danger of Google, see "GoogleWatch". In sum:

One wouldn't expect such censorship by a company that tells everyone to "Go ogle". (Bada boom, bada bing!)

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Subject: part of a bigger agenda
Posted by: anise on Oct 9, 2007 3:11 AM
This so called drug war is part of a bigger agenda a slower train to Auswitz it is a silent weapon mostly aimed at Africans in America. Along with the media and Racist/terrorist society we are being marginalized and disenfranchised .This drug war is about the police state.

Subject: RE: part of a bigger agenda
Posted by: HoboHomo on Oct 11, 2007 12:08 PM (Hey, that's me, Zeke!)

{{ it is a silent weapon mostly aimed at Africans in America. }}

IF you ignore the gov't's rampant HOMOPHOBIA, that is. Gays are being targeted BIG TIME these days, more so than any other struggling minority. They are the main target of hatred, same as Jews were in Nazi Germany. Keep in mind that gay people cross all spectrums of humanity, including blacks.

Your claim is similar to certain black people who RESENT the FACT that AIDS is used as a weapon to persecute gay people (accusing gays of taking AIDS funding away from blacks who "deserve it more" because they're not those filthy faggots; as if black homosexuals don't exist...or that gay rights are an INSULT compared to the black struggle...in spite of the fact that anti-gay persecution has been going on many MORE centuries than anti-black prejudice).

Do you know that one of the greatest fighters for legalizing marijuana is a GAY person: Dennis Peron?

Do you know that almost EVERY gay bar across the nation provides speakeasy-style marijuana dens? I'm sure this is also true for black bars...but the point I'm making is this:

The AIDS disaster has put gays in the limelight of the medical marijuana issue, and they are LEADERS in the underground dissemination of pot. Yet I don't see you--or anyone else in this thread--giving them ANY credit, for a job well done.

Ignore the gay aspect at your own peril. By accusing gays of usurping black issues by comparing their struggles TO African-Amerikans, and bashing your OWN gay brothers and sisters of color...you sabotage your own noble struggles for liberation. Even worse: you TAKE AWAY what nobility you have so painfully earned for centuries of struggle.

So I disagree with you, that our gov't's anti-marijuana stance is mainly to attack black people. It is to attack ALL people who don't fit in with the status quo: the poor, sexual minorities, Mexicans, counterculture, and of course African-Amerikans.

Marijuana is a symbol of the 60's free speech movement, and remains a thorn in the side of bigots and NeoCons. Thus, their war on drugs is mostly a war on marijuana...and by extension, a war on the counterculture, which is mostly made up of the disenfranchised, and liberals. Since Reagan became President, they have furiously attacked the innocent and meek, creating this War on Drugs as one effective weapon to keep us in our place.

But there REMAINS the fact that the US government is playing up HOMOPHOBIA more than even racism these days, in order to divide and conquer. And they're doing a damn good job at it, when you think about how anti-gay black folks still are, thanks to the brainwashing of their churches.

Keep THIS in mind: Coretta Scott King (RIP, dear)--one of the black community's GREATEST leaders (and not just by virtue of her marriage to MLK)--had ALWAYS remained 100% in support of gay rights, including marriage. Unfortunately, some of MLK's other relatives are extremely, and publicly, hostile against gays. They can all go to hell, AFAIC...and that has NOTHING to do w/skin color, and everything to do with their willful persecution of another innocent minority. They should know better...but then again, so should those among my gay white brothers who persist in their own prejudice against blacks. BOTH groups can go to hell!

We need to create a new religion, using TV icons as our deities. I propose nominating Sylvester the Cat as the Patron Saint of Neglected Children. For in my generation, and later ones, it was his antics (and that of other Looney Tunes characters), that made us laugh, when nothing else in our broken homes and childhood afforded us this wonderful joy, to show us that life can indeed be good. (I chose Sylvester as representative for all Warner Brothers cartoon characters.)

By studying their cartoons, I conclude there had to be at least some people working for Warner Brothers, who really cared about children...enough to delight us and make us forget our sorrows, for a time. It was more than a job for them; it was a calling. Bless every one of them, for it was a mission well done.

Carl Jung, the father of humane psychotherapy, claimed that the gods and goddesses--archetypes--li ve in every generation's popular icons. He mentioned movie stars and comic book characters as examples. I believe he was right on.

Jung's ideas have been a constant inspiration for me...and I use the strategy of archetypes in ALL my writing, and in my activism. You can see my archetypes in action, in my many tales...which you'll find on my website in these two sections:

Poems, Tales, Letters & Essays

True Tales From The Castro

Joseph Campbell, one of Jung's great disciples (in addition to Herman Hesse), stated that mankind is starving for a NEW mythology for a NEW world. Little did I dream I'd be one of the authors to bring this about! (No false humility here...after all, I AM the author of The Final Testament a.k.a. The Faggot Bible.) I revise old mythology (and create new mythology) on behalf of LGBT people...and incorporate various cultural icons around the world, and recreate them as gay deities, messengers, angels, and tricksters.

A great example of my Native American gay tales is:

Grandfather & Grandson

Here's a very multicultural tale, with deities from various cultures (Greek, Hindu, Buddhist, Native American, Islamic, etc.):

The Mask of Horus

And here's a tale that carries on the tradition of Greek mythology, though with a gay spin to it:

The Cloak of Invisibility

In that tale, I literally pick up the "thread" of Greek mythos by discovering a magic cloak woven with the leftover thread of Ariadne. Quote: "I believe it was woven from Ariadne's thread tossed aside in a forgotten ball, once Theseus made his escape from the Labyrinth."

And THIS hilarious tale:

Jesus On The Okra Winfree Show

The premise here, is that Jesus DOES return, and he's a flaming queer, like his Dad. Quote: "Jesus Christ returns to planet earth and, of course, He is invited to a LOT of talk shows...in order for us to understand better, what this man called Jesus is really all about. So it is on the Okra Winfree Show He is asked the question: "Jesus, what do YOU think was the most important advice YOU ever received in Your lifetime as the Suffering Messiah?"

I am very proud of this tale:

Brian And The Werewolf

For I consider it the gay version of Beauty & The Beast. Quote: "In a time when lonely old ladies were being burned for witchcraft and young men were tied with bundles of sticks to light these fires, a woman died at childbirth on the edge of a village. The child's name was Brian, because he was born in the briars. He grew to be a lover of men; but these were dangerous times for brotherly love. Brian therefore lived a lonely life of heartache, and hatred for the ignorant folk with whom he daily bargained to survive. Until he met Damien, the werewolf."

It takes place in Wales, when the people were still mostly pagans, but Xianity had just begun to usurp the ancient Celtic culture there.

And one more:

The Little Angel Who Wouldn't Fly

Quote: "In the First Year of the Return of Our Lord, there was a little angel who wouldn't fly. Not that he didn't have wings, nor were they damaged in any way. He just wouldn't fly. And this was a mystery to all the other angels who did, and looked below and saw the little angel like a mite moving across the brown and green face of Urth."

So these are all excellent examples of how I take archetypal characters out of folklore and religion, and transform them into gay heros. BTW, all the tales I just listed are part of my collection "Parables for the 21st Century"...which idea I got way back in 1988 (starting w/The Little Angel Who Wouldn't Fly).

FYI, many people around the world have translated my writing into many different languages...for which I give permission w/o cost. One of my ideals is the belief that what I have to say is too important to let mere lucre stand in the way. Some day, this will all pay off.

I know my future, my destiny, and have even written up all my famous quotes before they happen. May as well get them out of the way now! Examples: "When in Rome, vandalize", "There's a little homo in every homo sapiens", "There are no heteros in foxholes", "Accusing a gay person of heterophobia is like accusing a Jew of Naziphobia", and "Many are called but few are chosen, so step right up for your lederhosen."

I even wrote articles and tales about my future. Two examples:

The Future Belongs To "Moi"

The Birth Of The Final Testament

I am a gay prophet, visionary, healer and philosopher...from the pagan tradition. MOST of my wisdom I was born with...I take hardly any credit for my gifts. They were NOT earned, but given. I've written much of my prophecy in Usenet newsgroups, so that when people look back, I have provided solid PROOF of my abilities...since I can NOT alter the dates of my postings. (This is also a good way of protecting your copyrights, w/o costing a dime.)

I use humor as my main tool for raising consciousness. And I constantly hone my gift of writing and speaking, in order to refine my goddess-given talents to the utmost. I now realize that I have finally entered the time when my gifts now flourish. I have a constant stream of writing and ideas now going on in my life...not ONE SINGLE WRITER'S BLOCK exists. It is an exhilarating and fulfilling experience.

I will end my prattling for now, with one more famous quote by yours truly:

"I will never abuse the Oval Orifice." - El Presidente Zeke

Ingredients

1 c (.24 l) frozen fruit pieces (unsweetened)

1 handful raw walnuts
1 tbsp (15 ml) coriander powder

1 c (.24 l) rice milk (unsweetened )
1/2 c (115 ml) plain yogurt
1/2 c (115 ml) coconut milk (2nd pressing, unsweetened)
1/8-1/4 c (29-58 ml) maple syrup (to taste)

Instructions

Grind up walnuts into a powdery paste. (A clean coffee grinder does the job.)

Toss all ingredients into blender: frozen fruit first, then walnut/coriander, then liquids (including yogurt).

Blend at high speed until all lumps disappear (about 30 seconds).

Serves 2 (or 1 ravenous stomach).

NOTE: Vegans eliminate the yogurt...the smoothie remains super-delicious. You may substitute walnuts with 2 T's nut butter (such as macadamia, cashew, or peanut). You may use any sweetener in place of maple syrup (such as agave nectar or honey). You can use just one type of fruit, or a blend of two or more (bing cherries & blueberries are my fave!)

BONUS: While sipping your fabulicious smoothie, enjoy this article:
Frozen Vegetables (and fruit) Often Healthier Than Fresh.

Do you trust tobacco companies? Are you aware they've been surveying our queer community via gay bars for the last four years? In exchange for a trinket, a piece of junk (a cigarette lighter made in China), the survey requires you to scan your driver's license into their database, and answer a few questions. Of course the solicitors are cute young men and women, in order to seduce you to comply. They take your ID card, and scan it on a portable, flat-screen computer.

This is your picture ID, peoples, with your license number, photo, and personal information! Which, to my dismay, many bar patrons willingly provide...to one of the most scurrilous industries in the world.

What tobacco companies can do with this information, eh? Big bucks can be theirs, if they sell your data to other marketing companies. Of course, they promise never to do this...but you KNOW that's a lie. You KNOW how our rights to privacy and identity are rapidly being stripped away by just such big-brother industries (not to mention government). And what vulnerability to indentity theft, once your ID is now the property of irresponsible monopolies! Capitalist syndicates which cater to right-wing, homophobic/racist/misogyn istic elements, who presently run roughshod over our civil rights, since taking over the White House in 2000.

Bad enough, that some of our watering holes allow soliciting in a place where we expect to relax, AWAY from advertising come-ons. Why any bar owner or manager allows soliciting by ANYONE for ANY reason is beyond me. I don't even think they receive a financial reward for letting tobacco zombies invade our hangouts, who destroy the casual ambience by their hideous, glowing laptops, and syrupy-sweet personas. Shades of the Moonies, Scientology, Jehovah's Witnesses, and Mormons!

But keep in mind, these are TOBACCO companies targeting new customers from our queer family. Like they really care about improving our lives, caring for our health. We are already a frighteningly-besieged community, ravaged by hostile factions of all sorts, who are out to destroy us; or at least, make us very, very miserable! (Then they turn around and say "happy gay" is an oxymoron, for most homosexuals are terribly sad.) So why not make a quick buck off us, before we die of lung cancer, a coronary, or emphysema...if we don't first get mortally bashed? (Or are escorted to detention centers for our own good...enjoying a final puff on a Marlboro before the firing squad riddles us with bullets.)

It is quite sad that young people desperate for work, find themselves money whores to tobacco's pimp daddy. "What's wrong, if those interviewed ALREADY smoke?" queried one defensive solicitor...who was also African American (another oppressed group hooked to this toxic weed). She herself claimed to be gay; which for me makes this a double shame. If anything, she should be INSPIRING smokers to cut down, and finally (hopefully) give up the dangerous habit for good. Would she just as gleefully survey her black sisters and brothers, if it earned her keep? I shudder to think of the answer.

Why so many patrons comply EAGERLY to volunteer their sensitive, personal data to a corrupt and powerful interest, astounds me! I have not heard one peep of disapproval or disgust from anyone who was approached by these tobacco lackeys. For myself, I make it a point to confront them, and say that, if I were the owner, I'd kick them out. I also bring this up to fellow patrons, to discourage them from freely contributing personal information to a malicious corporation...one that is DEFINITELY homophobic.

Forget the evil tobacco aspect; the fact they are SOLICITING at all, should be justification enough to bar them from our hangouts. If you understand where I'm coming from, and agree, you ought to consider engaging these solicitors in conversation, in order to tell them what a bad thing they're doing. I would also complain to the manager, followed by a phone call or letter, to the bar's owner. Even BOYCOTT the bar, if you get no satisfaction via a simple complaint. We CAN put a stop to this, if we bother to care about what is being done to the fabric of our community, by this commercial intrusion to our highly treasured social spaces. Human spambots!

Saving the worst for last: What if the government decides it NEEDS the ID database of this national gay-only survey...and MANDATES these tobacco companies to turn it over. (Foolish of me to think tobacco industries wouldn't eagerly VOLUNTEER to donate a valuable list of queers that comes complete with photo and license number, to our right-wing government.)

We sexual minorities ARE under vicious attack by no other than our Federal gov't via that evil triangle: Bush/Cheney/Ashcroft. And here we have a database that is an ever-growing list of queers, under the auspices of tobacco companies. But who knows why they're REALLY collecting this data? Even if they sincerely have no intent to create a master list of known queers...that fact they are doing so makes it that much EASIER for the government to sabotage our lives. And we now know that if they can get away with it, they WILL.

Years ago, the government asked ONLY HOMOSEXUALS to volunteer for the final testing of the Hepatitis B vaccine. A few years after that, we had our very first gay AIDS patients. Now, we are being put on a national list, under the "innocent" auspices of tobacco companies. Could this actually be another ploy by government to sabotage our community? Call me paranoid, but just keep in mind how one women's liberationist (who said this years ago, and whose name I've since forgotten) defined paranoia: "heightened awareness."